I’ve been going through a lot recently. Multiple jobs, bills piling up, and my current relationship is falling apart. I want to cry. To bawl my eyes out and scream at the top of my lungs. But I can’t. It feels like there’s a wall between me and my emotions. Anyone else deal with this?
I’m like that as well, I want to cry but just like you say there is a wall between me and my emotions. I think it’s because as a man I was shamed a lot for crying so I’ve learned not to cry. I don’t know if that is a good thing or not…
It’s not healthy. Emotional expression is part of being a human but many cultures have normalized emotional suppression. Read what Vodian wrote, I think it might be useful.