I didn’t take it as undermining. It’s a complicated thing to understand (took me years) so questions are understandable.

It was a psychiatric therapist at a mental hospital. We talked everyday for weeks with her asking me all kinds of questions and asking me to act out scenarios to assess my mental state.

She said it was obviously clear I had extreme issues with authority and rules (if the rule doesn’t make sense or isn’t fully explained I simply won’t follow it and sometimes will go out of my way to make a show of ignoring/breaking the rule) and that I have violent tendencies (that was obvious at that point I just didn’t know why).

Took a long time to realize I was the problem. Tried to kill myself at one point cause it felt like the whole world was against me. Ended up in a psych ward where I was diagnosed. Autism, adhd, aspd (antisocial personality disorder [sociopathy/psychopathy]).

So I devoted myself to just trying to be better. I try to help people as best as I can and developed my mantra as corny as it sounds. “Just don’t make the situation worse. I don’t have to make it better just don’t make it worse”

I still wrestle with it all and long term complex relationships are almost impossible which leads to loneliness and guilt but I’m very stubborn so I keep pushing forward regardless.

Honestly it all just feels torturous but here I am.

It’s the difference between feeling like doing it and having to fight every fiber of your being to stop yourself from doing it.

In the moment it’s a pure instinctual reaction that you have to consciously ignore. Like touching a burning stove but not removing your hand. It goes against every instinct. Every rationality.

It’s like everything in you wants to harm someone despite knowing it’s morally wrong. It’s a constant battle between instinct and conscious morality.

I WANT to hurt people. I CHOOSE not to. Because I understand my feelings are wrong. But the feelings are still there

The fact that violence actually solves a lot of issues but results in punishments.

I don’t generally care about hurting people especially if they hurt me. But consequences are real and you have to deal with them regardless.

The amount of times I’ve had to remove myself from certain situations purely because I was about to commit extreme violence is vast.

I don’t want to hurt anyone but in the moment I want them dead in the worst way and I know I could do it. I can see every way I could make it happen and in the moment I want to do it.

I’m a diagnosed sociopath. It’s one of my deepest secrets since the condition has been so demonized and I’m terrified people will just treat me like a monster despite all the effort I’ve put in to try to live a normal life.

I’ve had my full dick and balls groped by an older (like 50’s) lady at one of my jobs (I was maybe 20-21). Brought it up to management and was told “What!? No way! She’s just a sweet old lady, she would never do anything like that!”

Meanwhile she not only grabbed my whole ass genitalia, she whispered “I’d love to see all this up close” while doing so.

No one ever believed me and it happened multiple times hence why I no longer work there…

Yeah so this is how this shit gets normalized.

Fuck Adobe yeah but don’t fuckin use ai.

Funny how the general mood for ai has shifted. Find an alternative or you’re just another part of the problem

Oh so I completely misinterpreted the meaning. I was assuming they quit and didn’t start anything not that they quit so they could start something

I’m really stupid when I’m tired

Got fired for asking why we put a peperoncini on a burger.

Also that’s a weird reason to quit a job imo.

Pretty much every store around me other than Walmart has shut down their self checkout stations due to thefts. So I only use self checkout on the rare occasion I have to go to Walmart

I just hate the explanation for adding force fields to create impact force because the unshielded projectiles had no stopping power and would just pass right through a target.

I fully understand the significance of stopping power but if you could change how much of that force is applied you could turn it off and shoot through walls/cover and still kill your target

And it’s fucking exhausting

Also if I send you a text when we’re in the same room and you read it out loud we’re no longer friends

Yeah but I’m sure prep time and speed is a factor.

If a raccoon just suddenly sprinted out your asshole without warning it’s definitely gonna cause some damage

It’s because it’s annoying af to read and it’s never gonna gain enough traction to justify it.

At this point it just feels like it’s a way to differentiate themselves from everyone else which is valid, be who you want to be, but sometimes that comes with consequences and you can’t really complain about it when you’re the one deliberately going out of your way to do it.

You’re free to be whoever you want and the rest of us are free to be annoyed by it ¯_(ツ)_/¯

“Should bot posts be banned-” Yes.

I’m not shitting in Pinocchio

I’d love this if winter wasn’t a thing 😭

I might be wrong but I’m like 80% sure historically people have been killed for farting at inopportune moments