I’ve been going through a lot recently. Multiple jobs, bills piling up, and my current relationship is falling apart. I want to cry. To bawl my eyes out and scream at the top of my lungs. But I can’t. It feels like there’s a wall between me and my emotions. Anyone else deal with this?
In the past, I have. You gotta find a way through, though, on your own terms, or that wall is gonna break at a very inconvenient time, and meanwhile the pressure build up isn’t doing you any favors, either. The god news is that if you can do it once, it’s easier the second time.
Try to connect with things that use to make you cry when you were younger. Maybe re-read Bridge to Terebithia or something. Listen to sad love songs, The Magnetic Fields have some great ones. Even happy tears — if the speech at the end of Independence Day does it for you, that’s fine. Once you’re crying about something low-stakes like that then you can start thinking about what’s going on now that you’re blocked up about and hopefully the tears keep coming.
Best wishes, truly.