The internet has always been my salvation.

As a socially underdeveloped kid, I’d spend my lunch hours in the high school library on those public desktop computers, reading fandom sites about my favorite video games. Computers always made sense to me. I even owe my entire career to them.

But the internet today feels wrong. Whatever the fuck kind of psychological warfare is happening right now with this Epstein stuff is too much for my mind to handle. I can’t do it anymore.

I will love. I will vote. I will support my community and continue to oppose this fucking nightmarish system we all find ourselves in. But I need to sign off.

Imagine the door closing sound effect when logging out of AIM.

  • Madzielle@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
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    6 days ago

    I keep a book on my person at all times now. Instead of mindlessly grabbing my phone (internet propaganda portal), I’ll grab the book instead. Been doing it about six months now, I like it a lot. I still havnt finished a book, I jump from one to the other very often, but I’m reading much more.

    Its okay to sign off. I had a panic attack two weeks ago, and basically had to sign off for a time. I’m still keeping distance from the internet though. Renewing my love of reading has been a serious positive though.

    • Crackhappy@lemmy.worldEnglish
      3·
      5 days ago

      That’s great! I’ve also been reading more than usual, finished 14 books so far this year. I read at the dog park, at the store, when my wife is driving etc, instead of checking my phone. My notifications are turned off except from my family. It’s helped my mental health considerably.

    • criscodisco@lemmy.worldEnglish
      3·
      6 days ago

      Man I feel you. There are so many things I want to read, so it’s hard to stay focused on one thing sometimes. I have like five or six books right now in various stages of completion next to my couch. I probably need to get some ADHD meds.

      • Madzielle@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
        2·
        5 days ago

        I have ADHD too. Why remembering to throw the book in my purse, and to just leave it there permanently, is the best strategy I’ve come up with so far. I mean, when I finish it, I’ll swap it out, but I’m on my way to actually finish this book.

        If I read at home I jump around from book to book, whatever looks interesting in the moment. Reading while out, I’ve only got the one choice, thw book I’ve carried with me.

        We’ll be real though, I’m about to head out for the day, an I want to swap it out for a new one lol