I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to, although I don’t even dream of prosperous countries, i don’t care about quality of life, I’d be happy to live as shitty or even worse than I do now, just to feel free and protected and have nothing to do with a regime that kills people and the people who support it. But I’m sure that if I did so, I would feel disgust and self-loathing , since it would be an escape from the consequences of my own weakness and inaction, even if there are no direct consequences other than living in this decaying hole. And I think any russian honest with themselves is of the same opinion. Their whining like “It’s not my fault I was born in russia” when people from other countries rightly declare that they don’t want them there is irritating and disgusting, and I don’t know how anyone has the patience to deal with them. I don’t know how fair my reasoning is, and whether it’s simply due to my apathy or envy, although I think I’ve basically come to terms with my situation and don’t have any big plans for my shitty little life. I’d like to hear someone else’s point of view on this without pity or emotion.
I have no chance of ever going to the US, and the people of those countries where I could hypothetically go are not happy to see russians there
Which countries do you mean? In Ukraine more likely you won’t be welcome, but even that can be different if you’d learn the history (not the bullshit you’re fed in Russia), culture, and language. Baltics won’t like you, I guess, but again, if you won’t push ‘great’ Russian culture (like three writers over three centuries) on them, you’d be fine. At some point, you’d have to understand that this is precisely nobody likes Russians. If you’re open to the world and don’t mind embracing diversity, languages and cultures, you’d be ok. Bonus, much easier to a girl, if you’re a girl. However, a friend in Stockholm was very suspicious of his Russian girlfriend, thinking she could be with him purely based on things not really related to the relationships. Which is, well, understandable.
Also, you might move different direction, like Asia. I think people mostly aren’t in the context of the war, and unless you’re pushing them into Russian, I believe you’d be fine. Especially if you’d be open about you not supporting the country of your origin, but being afraid to stand against the regime. Leaving, you’re weakening Russia, which is good for everyone, even Russians. Russia must lose the war to become a country (hopefully countries, plural) that won’t be a threat to everyone. Otherwise, it would be even worse for everyone.