I was in college for my second year, prior year I had tried to work full time but work dicked me over thinking since I had “3 days off” I could work more the other days. Those three days were for classes, Wednesday for doing classwork for Thursday. I worked my ass off to ensure I had a schedule work could more easily schedule around then they pulled this crap. I had a breakdown at work and promptly put my two weeks notice in. Time goes on and work dries up due to 2008 so finding part time work willing to work around your schedule was hard when you had families who needed ANYTHING were going for as many hours as possible.
I still had a decent gaming computer, ate modestly well, and had plenty of time for course work with leisure time. Though I was lonely a lot, I started becoming a more social creature in college. It was an awakening of me realizing how much trauma I was carrying, how hard I was to live with, my political views and beliefs hitting the asphalt, and many other things. I was holding on for deal life just trying to figure myself out while also going to college.
In that time I wish I had stayed in touch with a sister of mine more for assistance. We’ve reconnected after college and she learned how rough it was for me that she would have offered help in just food on occasion if she could. The financial collapse didn’t really touch me, I was too busy surviving mentally to worry about it much. But the after effects lasted long enough that they were still felt by me out of college.
I was basically in a crisis of self the entire time, realizing I couldn’t go on with how I was raised, it was wrong, and I needed to change but that was very difficult.
Man, 18 years, it’s wild of me to think of what I’ve lived through before people your age were born. Some good, a lot bad. How I was unguided because my parent’s generation were just “tough, deal with it!” types. Why when I meet younger folks who have questions I answer them and try to provide my experience to see if it helps them. Yall really do need it in these trying times.
I was in college for my second year, prior year I had tried to work full time but work dicked me over thinking since I had “3 days off” I could work more the other days. Those three days were for classes, Wednesday for doing classwork for Thursday. I worked my ass off to ensure I had a schedule work could more easily schedule around then they pulled this crap. I had a breakdown at work and promptly put my two weeks notice in. Time goes on and work dries up due to 2008 so finding part time work willing to work around your schedule was hard when you had families who needed ANYTHING were going for as many hours as possible.
I still had a decent gaming computer, ate modestly well, and had plenty of time for course work with leisure time. Though I was lonely a lot, I started becoming a more social creature in college. It was an awakening of me realizing how much trauma I was carrying, how hard I was to live with, my political views and beliefs hitting the asphalt, and many other things. I was holding on for deal life just trying to figure myself out while also going to college.
In that time I wish I had stayed in touch with a sister of mine more for assistance. We’ve reconnected after college and she learned how rough it was for me that she would have offered help in just food on occasion if she could. The financial collapse didn’t really touch me, I was too busy surviving mentally to worry about it much. But the after effects lasted long enough that they were still felt by me out of college.
I was basically in a crisis of self the entire time, realizing I couldn’t go on with how I was raised, it was wrong, and I needed to change but that was very difficult.
Man, 18 years, it’s wild of me to think of what I’ve lived through before people your age were born. Some good, a lot bad. How I was unguided because my parent’s generation were just “tough, deal with it!” types. Why when I meet younger folks who have questions I answer them and try to provide my experience to see if it helps them. Yall really do need it in these trying times.