Something, that if you found out the actual truth about, you’d feel like you knew all along but didn’t just want to accept it?
No politics please.
Regularly inhaling combustion fumes is bad for your health no matter how you try to rationalize it. Yeah, more smoke is worse than less, and not all smoke is equally toxic - but it’s all bad and should be avoided.
I’m interested in why you thought it’s not a big deal earlier, or at least didn’t full on face this realization?
I didn’t lie to myself about this but after a heart attack a few weeks ago (I’m in my 40s) the truth is I’m sure it contributed to it.
That everyone around me is gonna magically become healthy again.
I’m sorry. As time goes by, the body deteriorates, ours and that of our loved ones. And every day something terrible can happen, you can even just slip in the shower and crack your head! Such is life, and every day is a gift. Believing in God and his judgement (which implies an afterlife) helps, just in case.
Speaking of lying to yourself…
There’s nothing new since the last one, but the last one was a big one, one that apparently everyone was aware of besides myself: I DO have temper management issues and, before I irreparably fuck up my life, my afterlife and others’ lives, I need to completely rethink my reactions and why I have them, and may God help me get better. I had this train of thought about a year ago and I haven’t had any fights since. I know most folk here dgaf or are even offended by it, but I think God did help, and not just the internal psychological changes that happen due to not knowing what to do and asking help from Him.
The problem is, it’s only possible to know you were lying to yourself about something once the lie has been exposed and realized. The revelation most likely comes from an external source since the human mind is so good and not seeing things that don’t fit into your beliefs.
That my snoring is sleep apnea related. I’m pretty certain it is at this point, but I’m dreading the cost of getting a sleep study done and the cost of a CPAP.
