I lost a relative recently and I’ve been struggling with the grieving aspect. I haven’t cried or gotten visceral anger. I’m mostly just generally unpleasant right now. Impatient, easily annoyed and lack energy. Part of it is the cognitive dissonance associated. The individual was complicated, more good in the world overall, but, undeniably a lot of bad too.
Life is a natural part of living. I have lost my parents recently and my loyal dog, in the last decade barely a year without someone near and loved passed.
Overcoming grief for me starts understanding no one will be here forever so I spend quality time with them so when they aren’t around I don’t have regrets. The next part is understanding you are not going to overcome your feelings you are just going to get used to them.
The world is darker without my parents in it but they had me so their light would continue, I have to work for two now.
God bless friend, life is a bitch and then you keep living. You’ll get used to it.