Sorry if this is inappropriate to ask, I have morid curiosity and I need to know how parents feel.

  • choss@sh.itjust.works
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    20 hours ago

    I see you around here a lot. I feel a great draw to try to soothe your torment but I never know how. I always wish the best for you

    I’ve known a few people who lost their battle, and their families are never the same. It stays with you. On holidays, birthdays, life events. It’s been over ten years for me and it’s still there nearly every day. I know they have thoughts like

    • “I wish you were here Travis, you would have been my best man”
    • “I wish you could see the view on this hike, Katie. Happy birthday”
    • “I wish you could see me graduate, dad. I hope you’d be proud of me”

    One of these people inspired her mother to her own thankfully unsuccessful attempt. It ripples out in ways these people didn’t consider

    BUT I also have friends, one very close, who survived their attempts, and are grateful they did. Two of them just got married to incredible people. It’s still there for them, but it’s gotten much smaller, and they’re living legitimately very happy lives. They went back to school, graduated, married, and have plans to travel the world

    Each of them who lived got help. Big people in coats put them in a place and gave them magic socks. You say it makes it harder to emigrate, but to not mince words, so does being dead. I’m guilty of the same thing - letting a big consequence prevent me from acting on an even bigger consequence. But every day I’m sad about the people who died, I’m so incredibly grateful to the people who asked for help. I would be lost without the one, especially

    I wish the best for you on your journey, and I hope to continue seeing you around here