Tbh I don’t even feel safe re-visiting, unless I get magically body-swapped into a white dude or something.
From what I’ve heard, ethnic Chinese holding foreign citizenship still effectively gets treated as Chinese. I’m more likely to get exit-banned than some random white dude.
Also, I kinda feel sus about my parents. They jokingly threatened to send me back to China because “The West” is becoming “harmful” to me… I’m like… bitch what you mean… you literally brought me here, the fuck?
I read some news about involuntary psychiatric treatments and I’m just terrified af. I’m pretty sure they have connections back home.
My fear is that, and to be clear, this is just my own fears, not saying that this will happen, but I fear that my parents could get me exit-banned and bribe some corrupt doctor to declare me insane or something and force involuntary ECT or someshit like that and wipe my memories of their emotional abuse/neglect. But again, that’s just my fears, I hope they aren’t secretly that controlling/manipulative.
Here in the US, they are nobodys, they don’t have the Guanxi to do weird things, so its harder for them to weaponize the government’s tentacles against me. Things have to go through the courts and unlike China, they can’t just do involuntary treatments without a court order.
Sometimes my mom forgets we’re in the US and still try shenanigans with the court system, I’ve seen it first hand, fucking crying in court because she got an unfavorable judgement. Bruh, shenanigans don’t work here. (not unless you’re part of the 1%, which we are not)
From my experience"from what I’ve heard" stuff can be unreliable, although in your circumstances, sounds like you’re best playing it safe. There were cases in China of children being institutionalised for BS like videogame addiction. There’s also the chance though that they fixed that problem. For example, I was warned against smog in Beijing, I arrived and there were trees everywhere and half the cars were electric. Turns out they fixed the problem (although the city didn’t have the freshest of air but I didn’t have any adverse health impact from a temporary visit). I had heard stuff about Christian Persecution there, legally churches do need to be state sanctioned, but people claimed such churches were just propaganda arms/theatres for an illusion of a right to religious belief. I went to a church there and the way the service was carried out had it’s unique aspects, but the actual content of what was being preached wasn’t any different or concerning from what churches would preach here in the UK. There was no politics mentioned except a Chinese flag sitting outside the building and a poster tucked in the corner outside talking about “socialist values” which translated wasn’t really anything alarming from a theological standpoint.
Further research indicated the reason why Opendoors (an organisation commonly cited regarding Christian Persecution) put them in the “red” category was due to Xinjiang and Tibet where family or community members may not take kindly to an apostasy from their traditional religions, as opposed to state persecution.
Sure, China isn’t ideal but I have seen people over exaggerate stuff. It is advised if you renounced Chinese citizenship to always carry proof with you from what I’ve heard.
My fear is that, and to be clear, this is just my own fears, not saying that this will happen, but I fear that my parents could get me exit-banned and bribe some corrupt doctor to declare me insane or something and force involuntary ECT or someshit like that and wipe my memories of their emotional abuse/neglect. But again, that’s just my fears, I hope they aren’t secretly that controlling/manipulative.
Here in the US, they are nobodys, they don’t have the Guanxi to do weird things, so its harder for them to weaponize the government’s tentacles against me. Things have to go through the courts and unlike China, they can’t just do involuntary treatments without a court order.
Well… as long as you’re not a teenager. I had pretty similar fears growing up in a conservative Christian family that my parents might send me to some camp like that. The “troubled teen industry” is very unregulated and has seen a lot of cases of child abuse and even deaths, and kids can end up there for any reason at all, it just takes parental consent. I didn’t dare tell them when I was having doubts about God until long after I had moved out and had completely left that shit behind. If they thought I was going to spend eternity in Hell there’s no telling what they might have done, and they also probably didn’t even know about all the abuse and stuff that happens there and wouldn’t have listened to me if I tried to talk my way out of it. It was pretty terrifying, and probably contributed to my far-left political views today.
If I leave, I would never be able to gain such close access to fuck shit up. xD
But seriously tho, this is on of the problems of known danger vs unknown dangers, I know who these people are, I can plan accordingly. I don’t think living with stangers as roommates would help my mental health. I tried living on campus once, my depression went from 10/100 to 110/100. So I had to withdraw.
I love visiting China but I don’t really see much of a reason to want to live there
Tbh I don’t even feel safe re-visiting, unless I get magically body-swapped into a white dude or something.
From what I’ve heard, ethnic Chinese holding foreign citizenship still effectively gets treated as Chinese. I’m more likely to get exit-banned than some random white dude.
Also, I kinda feel sus about my parents. They jokingly threatened to send me back to China because “The West” is becoming “harmful” to me… I’m like… bitch what you mean… you literally brought me here, the fuck?
I read some news about involuntary psychiatric treatments and I’m just terrified af. I’m pretty sure they have connections back home.
My fear is that, and to be clear, this is just my own fears, not saying that this will happen, but I fear that my parents could get me exit-banned and bribe some corrupt doctor to declare me insane or something and force involuntary ECT or someshit like that and wipe my memories of their emotional abuse/neglect. But again, that’s just my fears, I hope they aren’t secretly that controlling/manipulative.
Here in the US, they are nobodys, they don’t have the Guanxi to do weird things, so its harder for them to weaponize the government’s tentacles against me. Things have to go through the courts and unlike China, they can’t just do involuntary treatments without a court order.
Sometimes my mom forgets we’re in the US and still try shenanigans with the court system, I’ve seen it first hand, fucking crying in court because she got an unfavorable judgement. Bruh, shenanigans don’t work here. (not unless you’re part of the 1%, which we are not)
From my experience"from what I’ve heard" stuff can be unreliable, although in your circumstances, sounds like you’re best playing it safe. There were cases in China of children being institutionalised for BS like videogame addiction. There’s also the chance though that they fixed that problem. For example, I was warned against smog in Beijing, I arrived and there were trees everywhere and half the cars were electric. Turns out they fixed the problem (although the city didn’t have the freshest of air but I didn’t have any adverse health impact from a temporary visit). I had heard stuff about Christian Persecution there, legally churches do need to be state sanctioned, but people claimed such churches were just propaganda arms/theatres for an illusion of a right to religious belief. I went to a church there and the way the service was carried out had it’s unique aspects, but the actual content of what was being preached wasn’t any different or concerning from what churches would preach here in the UK. There was no politics mentioned except a Chinese flag sitting outside the building and a poster tucked in the corner outside talking about “socialist values” which translated wasn’t really anything alarming from a theological standpoint.
Further research indicated the reason why Opendoors (an organisation commonly cited regarding Christian Persecution) put them in the “red” category was due to Xinjiang and Tibet where family or community members may not take kindly to an apostasy from their traditional religions, as opposed to state persecution.
Sure, China isn’t ideal but I have seen people over exaggerate stuff. It is advised if you renounced Chinese citizenship to always carry proof with you from what I’ve heard.
Well… as long as you’re not a teenager. I had pretty similar fears growing up in a conservative Christian family that my parents might send me to some camp like that. The “troubled teen industry” is very unregulated and has seen a lot of cases of child abuse and even deaths, and kids can end up there for any reason at all, it just takes parental consent. I didn’t dare tell them when I was having doubts about God until long after I had moved out and had completely left that shit behind. If they thought I was going to spend eternity in Hell there’s no telling what they might have done, and they also probably didn’t even know about all the abuse and stuff that happens there and wouldn’t have listened to me if I tried to talk my way out of it. It was pretty terrifying, and probably contributed to my far-left political views today.
Sounds like you need to move out. Maybe try a flatshare if money is tight
Keeping enemies close in case I want revenge.
If I leave, I would never be able to gain such close access to fuck shit up. xD
But seriously tho, this is on of the problems of known danger vs unknown dangers, I know who these people are, I can plan accordingly. I don’t think living with stangers as roommates would help my mental health. I tried living on campus once, my depression went from 10/100 to 110/100. So I had to withdraw.