Never got a sentence, it was a wrongful arrest; I was held in the [US] police station for a few hours for self-defence against a bully in highschool. Like wtf, the school admin that sided against me and I bet they are the ones who called.

So these two cops handcuffed me, took me outside, told me to get in the back, they put on the seatbelt thing. There’s a divider thing separating the back from the front, its all seems to be glass with a small metal mesh/net thing in the middle of the glass. They made the seats angled at like a very weird way, so fucking uncomfortable. What’s that phobia of small spaces called? I basically felt that the entire time.

So they fingerprinted me and took a photo. They put me in this tiny holding cell the size of a college dorm room with like 5 other kids, all of them are male (I say “kids” to indicate they are all minors like me, but they’re more like teens than “kids”). These kids all did actual crime like fucking stealing a car or stealing stealing airpods from someone or some crazy shit. All I ever did was self-defence, I felt so out of place, wasn’t supposed to be there.

I thought for sure I was gonna get beaten like 5 v 1 or something, but they were kinda chill and nobody touched me.

There was nothing to do, there was a tiny window on the door and one near in the wall where I can glance into the rest of the police station, where I saw the clock one the wall so I can check the time, I think they literally just converted an unused room / office space into a holding cell, and I think they just flipped the lock so it locks from outside.

So again, tiny spaces… that phobia thing sets in again. Honestly can’t remember if I felt the phobia at the time, or if its just in hindsight that my brain editorized the events

The other kids was just talking about their crime like: dude wtf, they could have voice recording in here, stop confessing your crimes, dumbass (no I did not call them “dumbass” outloud lol, didn’t wanna get beaten)

The other kids just asked what I was in for, and I told them about the fight and the fact that the other kid instigated it, so I’m the victim.

I’m Asian, and was the only Asian in there. Felt so awkward.

I suspect if I was black, I’d probably gotten a rougher treatment by the cops. “Model Minority” stereotype might’ve came into play, I didn’t try to resist arrest or anything like that.

Parents cames to get me, I was released, had to go to the juvenile court the next day, was like an hour away from where I lived, I assigned a public defender, charges dropped after a few months. Statute of limitations should have expired by now.

I never took reddit’s “ACAB” seriously until then; but now I get it. They literally just let the actual perpetrators go, but arrest the victims. School admin was at fault too. Wow, what a great way to spend resources, dipshits. They’ve done great job at radicalizing people. No wonder nobody trust the cops

I think I have PTSD from that incident. It was practically psychological torture. The thought of deportation was just on my mind for like months. (Even tho I later I realized I was already a citizen and theoretically should be safe, but still, fear are fears, hard to just suppress the anxiety) It’s probably a major factor for my depression, on top of the bullying in school, and even family was abusive. I never felt like I have a place that is “home” to me. I already have Adverse Childhood Experiences before, this just added to made that list longer.

Why life be so sad? 😕

Edit:

ALSO: I just remembered to say this: THEY NEVER READ THE “MIRANDA WARNING” 💀 (because I was never technically in “custodial interrogation” so they didn’t have to, fucking legal loopholes)

Movies and TV lie all the fucking time, they literally don’t have to read it to you.