There have been brain experiments that suggest you make your decisions before your brain consciously articulates the decisions and reasons for them.
I’ve known people who I’m pretty confident make up reasons for their choices after the fact. But are they really lying if they believe what they’re saying?
The question is, am I any different than them? When I think about the reasons I made past choices, how can I be sure I’m not just making up shit now?
No, I’m not high. I haven’t had drugs in almost a week.
I made the genious decision to run away from home… when I was 6 years old…
idk what the fuck I was doing…
probably 6 year old me was like: “Me scared, big brother scary, home is scary, me want my mommy”
So I just went to her workplace… mom was so shocked that I knew which bus routes to take from the few times she took me to work…
I’m still traumatized from that day…
But yea I don’t remember what I was thinking, I could only guess from the circumstances…
it was so spontaneous
I saw the door, and I decided to run…
Can’t believe its now like almost 2 decades gone by
but that’s still deeply engraved in my hippocampus
felt like it happened a month ago, I remember it as if it happened moments ago, I can feel those emotions, the atmosphere…