I stopped playing video games and eating junk food, learned that it is nicer to have friends in the real world instead of just enemies on the internet, realized I really like sports and exercise and being outside. I went through a phase where my ego was wrapped up in my physics degree, went through a hippy phase where I spent 6 months hiking and planned on living a life of poverty, went through an anti-consumption/anti-capitalist phase where I refused to actually make any money while working in software, and went through a climate doomerism phase where I started gardening to learn appropriate skills for the coming climate apocalypse. I went through a van life phase where I built out a campervan and lived in it on the streets while working a white collar job in a cubical. I went through an urban design/local politics phase where I regularly went to neighborhood association meetings. I went through a landlord phase where I bought a couple houses and slept on the floor while I rehabbed and rented them out in the time between when I was working. I went through several phases of chronic injury, which led me to a phase of getting into lifting weights, and for a while I was really into kettlebells. I went through vegetarian, keto, IF, and clean eating phases. I went through an incel phase, an online dating fuckboy phase, and an ethically nonmonogamous phase. I went through a backpacking and hiking phase, a rock climbing phase, a canyoneering phase, a running phase, and a swimming phase. I also had a few times when I was really into meditating, being super regimented, waking up early, sleeping in late, drinking a lot, drinking not at all, upskilling for my career every day, doing fuckall hoping to get fired every day, and pulling all nighters to avoid getting fired. So, I dunno. I guess I’ve been living a life.
And as to your question - yes. It’s still embarassing, lol.
I mean, I’m basically a glorified handyman. My rent is some of the cheapest in the city, and I rent rooms to people I think will be a good cultural fit to create a happy and supportive community in the household. Idk, I think it’s pretty cool.
I was that kid 20 years ago.
I stopped playing video games and eating junk food, learned that it is nicer to have friends in the real world instead of just enemies on the internet, realized I really like sports and exercise and being outside. I went through a phase where my ego was wrapped up in my physics degree, went through a hippy phase where I spent 6 months hiking and planned on living a life of poverty, went through an anti-consumption/anti-capitalist phase where I refused to actually make any money while working in software, and went through a climate doomerism phase where I started gardening to learn appropriate skills for the coming climate apocalypse. I went through a van life phase where I built out a campervan and lived in it on the streets while working a white collar job in a cubical. I went through an urban design/local politics phase where I regularly went to neighborhood association meetings. I went through a landlord phase where I bought a couple houses and slept on the floor while I rehabbed and rented them out in the time between when I was working. I went through several phases of chronic injury, which led me to a phase of getting into lifting weights, and for a while I was really into kettlebells. I went through vegetarian, keto, IF, and clean eating phases. I went through an incel phase, an online dating fuckboy phase, and an ethically nonmonogamous phase. I went through a backpacking and hiking phase, a rock climbing phase, a canyoneering phase, a running phase, and a swimming phase. I also had a few times when I was really into meditating, being super regimented, waking up early, sleeping in late, drinking a lot, drinking not at all, upskilling for my career every day, doing fuckall hoping to get fired every day, and pulling all nighters to avoid getting fired. So, I dunno. I guess I’ve been living a life.
And as to your question - yes. It’s still embarassing, lol.
Sounds like you’re actually living a full life, learning and seeking.
Bet you wouldn’t change much in your past.
When I die: I want to covered in scars, in a room of mementoes, and surrounded by my people. (Some sort of bloody last stand would also be cool.)
The only shameful thing you did was becoming a landlord. The rest you can feel ok about.
Nah but seriously, your life sounds a lot like mine. Maybe it’s not a hundred different phases, maybe it’s just the one big phase.
I mean, I’m basically a glorified handyman. My rent is some of the cheapest in the city, and I rent rooms to people I think will be a good cultural fit to create a happy and supportive community in the household. Idk, I think it’s pretty cool.