I had this thought after remembering one time that my DT (digital technologies) teacher at high school suggested that some of the class could try join a hacking competition. Nothing ever came of it, but I thought it was interesting at the time.
What’s really interesting is seeing the choices I made, and asking “what if I did the other thing”. Just off the top of my head, I could be still at uni doing research on maths or physics, I could be working on designing new robots for who knows what, or branching off even earlier, I could have been a doctor like my parents.
I’m only 24, so it seems like I might be a bit young for this kind of thinking, but there’s still a lot of things I could have done differently.
Omg I ruminate on alt-timelines about decisions that weren’t even my own. Like the alt-timeline where I was never born, or never moved abroad, or if I got different classes, that maybe I didn’t get bullies, or like the alt-timeline where I left my country earlier and didn’t get to keep my multilingualism. Or like maybe I could do things differently at home so that my parents loved me more, or like tried to make more friends… etc…
I get it. I think that’s just brain.exe doing brain.exe things.
The worst part is those traumatic memories tho, I still remember one of those from like… a long time ago… been re-living that day for a long time. What if the outcome was worse? What if I never made it out of that situation alive?
So… yeah…
idk
OCD
CPTSD
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