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Cake day: June 12th, 2023

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  • I’m gonna have to give a couple of things because it’s too hard to just pick one:

    1. People being genuinely into their hobby. That just shows up on their face and makes them 1000% more interesting to just watch and listen, whether I care about that thing myself or not at all

    2. When I find some good band that I haven’t heard about before but the vibe they give off is something that reminds me of my childhood or people that I know

    3. My plants. Whenever I see a new leaf or branch or anything, it just makes me so happy for it and makes me want to root for it


  • I very rarely post on social media, but these kinds of sincere topics can usually get me to open up a bit.

    A couple of months ago I finally got myself to give streaming another shot. I’ve always wanted to see where it leads, but was unable to enjoy it properly due to social anxiety and the fact that up till now I had an unhealthy relationship with the Internet. A couple of years ago I went through therapy, which helped me with these issues, so when an opportunity arrived, I just jumped in without a second thought.

    So far it’s been a rollercoaster, I’m still struggling to figure out my style, as well as get more comfortable with streaming by myself (I am quite introverted myself, and I usually do it with my guild members which makes it easier for me to not have to constantly “be on”). I’m also struggling to find a consistent audience, but despite all of these things, the overall microscopic spikes of people checking it out are worth it for me.

    So, for the next year, I hope to figure these things out and get a consistent audience going. I still have no idea what I want to do with it, aside from “I just want to try it properly”. It also helped me step away from my day-to-day job and have something to do that is completely different.

    Another thing that I also hope to do is move out of my current apartment and get away from this dreadful neighborhood, but that will happen eventually. It’s just a matter of time, and I can’t control how it develops.