

A lot of this is normal, and yes there are some aspects of your behaviour that I’d find a bit concerning but it’s been mentioned a lot in this thread. And I think that we’ve done so much to vilify men and male sexual desire as a society that it’s giving the manosphere a voice they would otherwise have not existed decades ago.
Society is genuinely at the point where we’ll creep shame any guy who even so much as glances at a well-endowed lady’s boobs or arse in a tank top or yoga pants.
We need to take a long and hard look at our society and ask how we’ve managed to make people like Andrew Tate, Steven Crowder and Charlie Kirk household names.
The amount of people calling similar takes to mine incel ideology is shocking, and I think this immediate attack is why we have a male loneliness epidemic and why I worry for what the future brings.



I don’t think it’s the case of OP possibly being trans but I don’t want to dismiss your tale nor discourage the OP from considering this possibility. It’s possible that it could be gender dysphoria.
I’m glad you found peace with your transition.